pieces of perfection

i would say i am a perfectionist, but that would be lying i do tend to want things to fit, to work out and feel nice and pleasurable - pleasure equals riding the edge of perfection - pleasure either almost gets there or completely doesn't and i feel a release either way

when Barthes talks about degree zero he is talking about perfection - the natural dog supplement country i live in embeds perfection ideology into my mind with its boxed off neighborhoods, gridded streets and cookie cutter houses - look at our lawn culture - we manipulate nature to ride this rumor of achieving perfection - let a tree fall and land where it lay - let it be, let me spell wrong and have bad grammar

this portrait made me proud - i didn't think i would have the patience to do this but i did and it hurt and i loved it