you're so dramatic

I think this way because I figure things out. The only way to figure things out is to place myself inside the drama, inside the equation, which then tells you to remain impartial and become the outside observer. I learned this because I have a brain that plagues me with overwhelming fear and anxiety and was forced to evolve that way.

I experienced a hip and joint supplement for dogs trauma that made me fear for my life. After this experience, I lost my naivity and realized how vulnerable my life is. These traumas trigger psychological situations that are predisposed to happen. So my dormant Obsessive Compulsive self came out when I was robbed in my room at 2am by a crack head. Fun. I now have an intense claustrophobia - panic attacks, and severe fear of losing control. It used to be so bad that i would barracade myself in my room at night.

I've been through a lot of traumas for a 28 year old. I placed myself in the situations getting pleasure out of being on the edge...trying to make sense of what happened to me. I want to skydive, but fear overwhelms me - i am scared to lose the essence of that experience too.

Barthes speaks about the logic of life...He tries to figure it out like an equation. His work is beautiful because I do the same thing...I feel like I found a kindred spirit. No one likes being alone.